THis blog has died.
For some reason comments have quit working on this blog, so I have switched over.
No, the style has not be preserved (I didn't feel up to finding it :p
EIther way, follow me on the new blog now.
Sorry for the difficulty -.-
Acer Aspire and Blogging
On: Monday, November 3, 2008
There is absolutely nothing to blog about -.-
I mean, I'm tired, I want toast, and I'm listening to Katy Perry.
That's it.
That's all I've been able to really do.
The coolest thing that' happened to me is I've gotten an Acer Aspire One.
It's really an awesome netbook.
At first I thought "Acer, pfh, not good."
But, it's tiny, and sleek, and it works great.
To say the least it is one of the best things I've seen on the market in a while.
And, speaking of market. What's been up with the gas lately?
It's nice, but surely that'll come back to bite us in the ass.
Right?
Also, I can't wait untill tomorrow.
I really feel like most of our future is really relying on this election.
I mean, if Obama wins we start to head towards socialist.
If Mcain wins we head towards a skewed version of what we already have.
Either way it sucks.
But, my interest has really been focoused on Obhama and his "Nazi Policies" so to say.
He seems a lot like Hitler.
Give the people what they want, and take control of the youth.
yada, yada, we're screwed.
I dunno', I really just wanted to let ya' know I'm still alive.
Toodles :D
Oh yeah, I'm working on a story, but it's going no where.
I may or may not post some of it. :p
I mean, I'm tired, I want toast, and I'm listening to Katy Perry.
That's it.
That's all I've been able to really do.
The coolest thing that' happened to me is I've gotten an Acer Aspire One.
It's really an awesome netbook.
At first I thought "Acer, pfh, not good."
But, it's tiny, and sleek, and it works great.
To say the least it is one of the best things I've seen on the market in a while.
And, speaking of market. What's been up with the gas lately?
It's nice, but surely that'll come back to bite us in the ass.
Right?
Also, I can't wait untill tomorrow.
I really feel like most of our future is really relying on this election.
I mean, if Obama wins we start to head towards socialist.
If Mcain wins we head towards a skewed version of what we already have.
Either way it sucks.
But, my interest has really been focoused on Obhama and his "Nazi Policies" so to say.
He seems a lot like Hitler.
Give the people what they want, and take control of the youth.
yada, yada, we're screwed.
I dunno', I really just wanted to let ya' know I'm still alive.
Toodles :D
Oh yeah, I'm working on a story, but it's going no where.
I may or may not post some of it. :p
Going Camping
On: Friday, October 24, 2008
Today I'm going camping in La. It's going to be fun, but really, really cold.
All in all, I'm just posting to say that I'm going to be gone, and if you want to check out my stuff, you can follow me on twitter :D
I'll still be posting on twitter.
Just not blogger.
I'll be back Monday ;)
All in all, I'm just posting to say that I'm going to be gone, and if you want to check out my stuff, you can follow me on twitter :D
I'll still be posting on twitter.
Just not blogger.
I'll be back Monday ;)
Has Facebook turned into bloatware?
On: Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Over the past few days I've found myself using facebook much like I used to use Myspace.
Check my inbox, log out. Check my inbox, log out.
It seems that facebook just isn't worth it. It's bloated, and over-kill as a website.
The apps take up to much room, and it's annoying to get requests to try out some apps.
Really, I've started using Blogger for my "social" thing, and twitter to keep people knowing what I'm doing.
I use facebook for messaging. That's it.
Really, facebook is like some address book for me.
But, Blogger feels fresh. It is built around learning about people, and information.
Those are two things that I like :D
But, I digress.
Really, facebook has become bloatware.
And, I do defend that.
Either way, I will continue to use facebook until I find something better (which I haven't managed to yet).
If you have any suggestions, please do tell :D
Check my inbox, log out. Check my inbox, log out.
It seems that facebook just isn't worth it. It's bloated, and over-kill as a website.
The apps take up to much room, and it's annoying to get requests to try out some apps.
Really, I've started using Blogger for my "social" thing, and twitter to keep people knowing what I'm doing.
I use facebook for messaging. That's it.
Really, facebook is like some address book for me.
But, Blogger feels fresh. It is built around learning about people, and information.
Those are two things that I like :D
But, I digress.
Really, facebook has become bloatware.
And, I do defend that.
Either way, I will continue to use facebook until I find something better (which I haven't managed to yet).
If you have any suggestions, please do tell :D
Lala
On: Tuesday, October 21, 2008
It's tearing through the blogosphere.
Lala, a music website that has struggled at times has come up with a new service that lets you buy music on the internet for pennies!!!
You can't put the music on a music player, but you can listen to it on the interwebs.
You can also buy the actual album, but why?
It's worth it in the world, and it's going towards the future ;)
Lala
This is the site
It is pretty cool really.
But, onwards with the day.
English 2
My day started off... weird. Why? I ended up with Mr. Williams, who is probably the strangest teacher in existence. He pretended to get sucked into his desk, threatened to fart on a student, and made a strange laugh at random intervals. So, he has me creep'd out. He seems like a decent teacher though... just creepy.
Geometry
Geometry was pretty boring really. It was made up mostly of silence, and short conversations. I found the teacher was mostly unassertive, and almost seemed nervous around us. It'll take some time to get used to this class.
Speech
Speech, speech, speech, speech. I have a lot to say about Speech.
I have Speech with Macey and Makayla. This is an amazingly cool thing, but, it's also amazingly frustrating.
To me, they are at times overly chatty, and upon entry to the class they took the liberty to hug me despite the rule against PDA (Public Display of Affection).
Really, it's cool to get hugged by your friends. But, it's not cool to openly break rules in class. It's just not right. Also, this makes the class different for me. I've never been in class with either of them, and they both talk a lot. It's hard for me to concentrate when people are talking, and they have reasons to talk to me. I'm Macey says I'm her "bestest friend", and I'm like one of Makayla's best friends too. I don't think I can recall having a class with anybody that was seriously my best friend.
They also read body language a lot, so at times they think I'm "sad" when I'm not. That gets annoying, and opens up rivers of possible conversation.
Also, Macey said, "Group work sucks though because all you want to do is talk..."
That's another BIG worry of mine. I'm already a bad procrastonator, and I'm really trying to do good in school. But, it's going to be hard with all the conversation in the airways.
I really just need to be focused on school right now.
Chemistry
Not much to say here, it's a boring class. I only know a handful of people. And, Mr. Cook is pretty lax. It seems like it may actually be an easy enough class.
That was my day.
It's short and sweet, no?
Lala, a music website that has struggled at times has come up with a new service that lets you buy music on the internet for pennies!!!
You can't put the music on a music player, but you can listen to it on the interwebs.
You can also buy the actual album, but why?
It's worth it in the world, and it's going towards the future ;)
Lala
This is the site
It is pretty cool really.
But, onwards with the day.
English 2
My day started off... weird. Why? I ended up with Mr. Williams, who is probably the strangest teacher in existence. He pretended to get sucked into his desk, threatened to fart on a student, and made a strange laugh at random intervals. So, he has me creep'd out. He seems like a decent teacher though... just creepy.
Geometry
Geometry was pretty boring really. It was made up mostly of silence, and short conversations. I found the teacher was mostly unassertive, and almost seemed nervous around us. It'll take some time to get used to this class.
Speech
Speech, speech, speech, speech. I have a lot to say about Speech.
I have Speech with Macey and Makayla. This is an amazingly cool thing, but, it's also amazingly frustrating.
To me, they are at times overly chatty, and upon entry to the class they took the liberty to hug me despite the rule against PDA (Public Display of Affection).
Really, it's cool to get hugged by your friends. But, it's not cool to openly break rules in class. It's just not right. Also, this makes the class different for me. I've never been in class with either of them, and they both talk a lot. It's hard for me to concentrate when people are talking, and they have reasons to talk to me. I'm Macey says I'm her "bestest friend", and I'm like one of Makayla's best friends too. I don't think I can recall having a class with anybody that was seriously my best friend.
They also read body language a lot, so at times they think I'm "sad" when I'm not. That gets annoying, and opens up rivers of possible conversation.
Also, Macey said, "Group work sucks though because all you want to do is talk..."
That's another BIG worry of mine. I'm already a bad procrastonator, and I'm really trying to do good in school. But, it's going to be hard with all the conversation in the airways.
I really just need to be focused on school right now.
Chemistry
Not much to say here, it's a boring class. I only know a handful of people. And, Mr. Cook is pretty lax. It seems like it may actually be an easy enough class.
That was my day.
It's short and sweet, no?
School
On: Monday, October 20, 2008
School is this big place that I haven't been to in 2 monthes.
Obviously, it is worth it to go there and get a degree.
So, today I started my day by getting my schedule.
A-1: Newspaper
Walk in, and the volume is set to mute. I swear, not a single voice was risen. Though I was extremely anxious, my nerves were calmed when I saw that Victoria was in the class. The teacher, Mrs. Liska, was grading papers all period, and I got the impression that the class was more of a "Do it on your own" class.
Otherwise, the class was good, just boring.
A-2: Gym
Simply, it was fun. We played volleyball. I don't really know anybody in the class, but the people seem nice enough.
A-3: Interior Design
It's not a class full of people I know. Actually, I don't know anybody. But, the class is fun! I get to design... interiors :p
I really like it though, least, my first day was good.
A-4: World History
World History was alright. As is expected, there were plenty of people I knew in the class. It was pretty boring, and normal though. Mr. Self is quite a character though.
Really, school went great today.
Tomorrow will probably only be better.
Obviously, it is worth it to go there and get a degree.
So, today I started my day by getting my schedule.
A-1: Newspaper
Walk in, and the volume is set to mute. I swear, not a single voice was risen. Though I was extremely anxious, my nerves were calmed when I saw that Victoria was in the class. The teacher, Mrs. Liska, was grading papers all period, and I got the impression that the class was more of a "Do it on your own" class.
Otherwise, the class was good, just boring.
A-2: Gym
Simply, it was fun. We played volleyball. I don't really know anybody in the class, but the people seem nice enough.
A-3: Interior Design
It's not a class full of people I know. Actually, I don't know anybody. But, the class is fun! I get to design... interiors :p
I really like it though, least, my first day was good.
A-4: World History
World History was alright. As is expected, there were plenty of people I knew in the class. It was pretty boring, and normal though. Mr. Self is quite a character though.
Really, school went great today.
Tomorrow will probably only be better.
Mom
On: Sunday, October 19, 2008
Today my mom came over to see me.
Sure, we have issues, but the fact is that we are trying to work around those.
Surely my grandpa is still not a hundred percent sure on is she's changed or not, but I am willing to give her a chance.
The visit went alright anyways.
Kinda' boring, but decent enough.
I also went to a party for an hour.
Nearly had a panic attack, but I did go.
-.-
I did go on a walk.
Tomorrow I start SCHOOL!
I'm really excited, but very nervous
I think I'll do alright though.
But, something disturbs me.
It turns out that I'm a big part of a few people's life.
Needless to say I have never thought of myself like that.
Macey described my position like this:
"It's like this" (holding her fist slightly apart)
but with me back "it's like this" (Pushing her fists together)
I make things work is kinda' what I got out of that.
It's an amazing feeling, being a big part of people's lives.
Thank God I lived ^-^
Thank God, Thank God, Thank God
I'm happy just thinking about everything.
It's good... very good.
Oh yes, if you have a blogger, follow me ^o^
Please? 0_0
Also, like usual tell other about my blog.
It'd be appreciated.
Aanima
It sounds a bit like Tool to me :p
Sure, we have issues, but the fact is that we are trying to work around those.
Surely my grandpa is still not a hundred percent sure on is she's changed or not, but I am willing to give her a chance.
The visit went alright anyways.
Kinda' boring, but decent enough.
I also went to a party for an hour.
Nearly had a panic attack, but I did go.
-.-
I did go on a walk.
Tomorrow I start SCHOOL!
I'm really excited, but very nervous
I think I'll do alright though.
But, something disturbs me.
It turns out that I'm a big part of a few people's life.
Needless to say I have never thought of myself like that.
Macey described my position like this:
"It's like this" (holding her fist slightly apart)
but with me back "it's like this" (Pushing her fists together)
I make things work is kinda' what I got out of that.
It's an amazing feeling, being a big part of people's lives.
Thank God I lived ^-^
Thank God, Thank God, Thank God
I'm happy just thinking about everything.
It's good... very good.
Oh yes, if you have a blogger, follow me ^o^
Please? 0_0
Also, like usual tell other about my blog.
It'd be appreciated.
Aanima
It sounds a bit like Tool to me :p
My new favorite phone
On: Saturday, October 18, 2008
Sony-Ericsson w580i
It's awesome, and I now have text and internet :D
The fact is that it's nice, sleek, and to say the least, amazing.
The phone will send me an email when someone comments my blog :)
Which, is awesome.
Plus, I can blog on the go if I need to.
It's awesome.
I'm very happy with the phone, and I will use it.
It also makes a great media player.
So, if you're looking for a great, small phone, this is the one for you :D
Anxiety
On: Friday, October 17, 2008
I will admit it, I have absolutely no idea what to write.
-.-
I am, to say the least, just trying to manage with my anxiety, and my desire.
I'm anxious because I will see so many people very soon.
but, I desire seeing them.
SO, it's cool right?
No, it makes my whole body ache. I am bursting with anticipation. my thoughts are confused.
So, I dream.
I dream of a life that I may, or may not have. I dream of a world that may or may not exist.
Just, I keep thinking of going to school, and seeing people.
A MASS of people.
It's nerve wrecking to someone whose spent 2 monthes going to school with a handful of guys that I also live with.
I also think about the people at Meridale. I feel for them because they still have those 7 to 9 lives.
They'd be in group right now. Talking about stuff.
Here I am at a computer, typing out my life.
Is that right?
I feel it is, but I can't be certain.
Why not?
Nothing is certain.
I'm not sad, depressed, or angry.
Just... confused.
Going from a place like Meridale, and then just coming home.
It's super strange.
I remember thinking today that I should have stayed at Meridale two more weeks.
If only for the comfort of not having to change.
But, I do have to change.
I can't stay there forever.
I have this feeling that when I really get back to school everything will be alright.
It'll reassure me.
Helk, today Bella trying to choke me to death (aka Hug) was reassuring in of itself.
But, I am, still anxious.
I'll blog tomorrow.
Maybe I'll actually have something to say :p
-.-
I am, to say the least, just trying to manage with my anxiety, and my desire.
I'm anxious because I will see so many people very soon.
but, I desire seeing them.
SO, it's cool right?
No, it makes my whole body ache. I am bursting with anticipation. my thoughts are confused.
So, I dream.
I dream of a life that I may, or may not have. I dream of a world that may or may not exist.
Just, I keep thinking of going to school, and seeing people.
A MASS of people.
It's nerve wrecking to someone whose spent 2 monthes going to school with a handful of guys that I also live with.
I also think about the people at Meridale. I feel for them because they still have those 7 to 9 lives.
They'd be in group right now. Talking about stuff.
Here I am at a computer, typing out my life.
Is that right?
I feel it is, but I can't be certain.
Why not?
Nothing is certain.
I'm not sad, depressed, or angry.
Just... confused.
Going from a place like Meridale, and then just coming home.
It's super strange.
I remember thinking today that I should have stayed at Meridale two more weeks.
If only for the comfort of not having to change.
But, I do have to change.
I can't stay there forever.
I have this feeling that when I really get back to school everything will be alright.
It'll reassure me.
Helk, today Bella trying to choke me to death (aka Hug) was reassuring in of itself.
But, I am, still anxious.
I'll blog tomorrow.
Maybe I'll actually have something to say :p
Where's Tyler?
On: Thursday, October 16, 2008
Back, that's where.
For the past 2 monthes I have been at a treatment center getting better! And, it worked :D
I feel happier, more content, and, all in all, better. Flat-out better.
I'll post more later.
Gotta' get used to blogging again :p
For the past 2 monthes I have been at a treatment center getting better! And, it worked :D
I feel happier, more content, and, all in all, better. Flat-out better.
I'll post more later.
Gotta' get used to blogging again :p
Okay.
I thought a lot about it last night, and I decided I'm just going to blog.
Forget the past, and start it over.
Well, by forget that past I mean not blogging about it.
I had issues, I'm back home, and my issues are healing over.
I'm at home, bored, typing the from my grandpa's computer because I can't get mine to work with internet -.-
Probably a missing driver or something.
I will get enrolled back it to school later today, and begin classes on Monday.
I saw Macey and Cari yesterday, and it was so great!
They seem very, very happy to see that I am
- Alive
- Back home
- Going back to school soon
I'm nervous because I already know that one guy hates me for what I did.
But, I got my friends, and my family.
So, I'll survive.
I'm really nervous about going back to school.
Not nervous that anything bad's going to happen. Just, that there will be frustrating people that hate me for my suicide attempt.
All I can do is prove I've changed, and show love in the face of hate.
Peace and what not.
That's something that's changed about me.
I can't stand violence, and killing anymore.
I even avoid killing insects now.
It's just, meaningless to harm things.
They do nothing to me, why should I effect them?
No reason too :)
And, I have my mantra, "It's not about winning or losing, just how much effort you put into it."
It's short, simple, honest, and easy to live by.
And I DO now.
I think I'll go.
I'm tired of my fingers moving :p
I'm not as good as I used to be at typing.
No music for now.
No reason for now.
The Day Is Today
On: Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Firstly, yeah, I'm depressed right now.
The doctor took me off the prozac, and it's finally all gotten out of my system.
And, I've pretty much been having the most awfully miserable thoughts.
I still have some prozac left, so I'm going to talk to my grandma about letting me keep taking it for now.
I see the doctor again in about 3 weeks, so I'll be able to talk to him about the fact that even if the prozac does seem to make me have more panic attacks when I take it, I'd rather that than being miserable.
I am starting to think all shrinks might be stupid. The first one I had only checked his email (and one time he was looking at his Myspace!!!) when I went there.
So, we got rid of him after the third visit.
The doctor I have now just took me off the prozac.
Most anybody who knows anything about medicine knows that the only way you should take some one off an anti-depressant is over time. Not just throw them off it.
It gets worse when he gave me xanax knowing that I'm susceptible to addiction (anorexia, self injury). Meds that help with panic attacks have extremely high addiction rates. I mean, it's the only pill that I've ever seen warning against addiction right on the bottle (and, with all the problems my family has, I have seen a lot of pill bottles).
I don't get how they allow stupid people into the medicine practice >:(
Course, I also must admit that now adays every body seems to have something wrong with them.
So, that is my current mental state.
Onto something more interesting.
I always bug my friends about about checking out my blog and lovingly refer to it as "whoring" my blog :p
But, today one of my friends (hereinto referred to as Macey :p if she reads this) told me that she looks at my posts, but doesn't comment on them because I don't post about anything that is easy to comment to.
I took a lot of liberties in paraphrasing that because my memory sucks. But, that is what I got from her speak.
I mean, a comment doesn't have to be long.
It doesn't have to be true.
It just has to be a comment.
Like you could say, "That sucks."
And, when my gMail says I have a new comment, I'd still be more than happy.
Comments don't have to start a disscussion.
They just have to be a comment.
If it was the other way around, the button wouldn't say "0 comments".
It'd say something like "0 discussions".
Wow, my blog's starting to act like it's about "How to work and use a blog" :p
Guess that's because of how much I'm writing about my work in getting my blog out there.
Meh. My brain has run dry of thoughts for the day.
meh, I feel a little emo today :p
Also, sorry but that's the only free song they have.
It's still good though
grrr, I'm becoming obsessive with my editing.
I probably just fixed twelve different mistakes on four different occasions :p
The doctor took me off the prozac, and it's finally all gotten out of my system.
And, I've pretty much been having the most awfully miserable thoughts.
I still have some prozac left, so I'm going to talk to my grandma about letting me keep taking it for now.
I see the doctor again in about 3 weeks, so I'll be able to talk to him about the fact that even if the prozac does seem to make me have more panic attacks when I take it, I'd rather that than being miserable.
I am starting to think all shrinks might be stupid. The first one I had only checked his email (and one time he was looking at his Myspace!!!) when I went there.
So, we got rid of him after the third visit.
The doctor I have now just took me off the prozac.
Most anybody who knows anything about medicine knows that the only way you should take some one off an anti-depressant is over time. Not just throw them off it.
It gets worse when he gave me xanax knowing that I'm susceptible to addiction (anorexia, self injury). Meds that help with panic attacks have extremely high addiction rates. I mean, it's the only pill that I've ever seen warning against addiction right on the bottle (and, with all the problems my family has, I have seen a lot of pill bottles).
I don't get how they allow stupid people into the medicine practice >:(
Course, I also must admit that now adays every body seems to have something wrong with them.
So, that is my current mental state.
Onto something more interesting.
I always bug my friends about about checking out my blog and lovingly refer to it as "whoring" my blog :p
But, today one of my friends (hereinto referred to as Macey :p if she reads this) told me that she looks at my posts, but doesn't comment on them because I don't post about anything that is easy to comment to.
I took a lot of liberties in paraphrasing that because my memory sucks. But, that is what I got from her speak.
I mean, a comment doesn't have to be long.
It doesn't have to be true.
It just has to be a comment.
Like you could say, "That sucks."
And, when my gMail says I have a new comment, I'd still be more than happy.
Comments don't have to start a disscussion.
They just have to be a comment.
If it was the other way around, the button wouldn't say "0 comments".
It'd say something like "0 discussions".
Wow, my blog's starting to act like it's about "How to work and use a blog" :p
Guess that's because of how much I'm writing about my work in getting my blog out there.
Meh. My brain has run dry of thoughts for the day.
meh, I feel a little emo today :p
Also, sorry but that's the only free song they have.
It's still good though
grrr, I'm becoming obsessive with my editing.
I probably just fixed twelve different mistakes on four different occasions :p
Just a little question...
On: Tuesday, August 5, 2008
I've been searching around Mybloglog, looking at people's blogs and such.
But, some people have this weird thing where they for some strange reason have decided to either 1. Not allow comments, or 2. Completely block off the blog so it can't be seen.
To me, that doesn't make sense.
In my eyes the entire concept of a blog is to give input, and then receive output.
Right?
Having a blog with just input, but no output makes it a website.
So why have the blog?
Or, not really that, but why put it in blog listings?
A blog that can't be commented on is just a website.
There was a time when you call a blog that you can't comment on a website.
But those times are long gone.
Now, a blog is a tool for both input and output.
Then, on blogs that are blocked off from the general public.
That's stupid.
If you build a blog that is only for your friends to see, why not just tell them in person, or on the phone, or on facebook.
You don't have to waste space on the internet.
And, you definitely don't have to put it in a blog listing.
Maybe though, I take to much of an OJ Simpson approach to blogging.
I truly blog so I can say If I Did It, Here's How it Happened.
I think that if I do anything, or think anything, and don't feel like the world can be allowed to know it, it must be wrong.
I know there's things you shouldn't talk about, so I don't talk about those things.
I understand that there's things that are so normal that it's pointless to talk about them.
If I didn't my blog would pretty much be about my bowel movements, what I ate, and the fact that I have fingers (how else would I type?)
.....nevermind that question :p
The point is, I believe blogging is a social thing, and if you're not going to use it as such. What's the point?
But, some people have this weird thing where they for some strange reason have decided to either 1. Not allow comments, or 2. Completely block off the blog so it can't be seen.
To me, that doesn't make sense.
In my eyes the entire concept of a blog is to give input, and then receive output.
Right?
Having a blog with just input, but no output makes it a website.
So why have the blog?
Or, not really that, but why put it in blog listings?
A blog that can't be commented on is just a website.
There was a time when you call a blog that you can't comment on a website.
But those times are long gone.
Now, a blog is a tool for both input and output.
Then, on blogs that are blocked off from the general public.
That's stupid.
If you build a blog that is only for your friends to see, why not just tell them in person, or on the phone, or on facebook.
You don't have to waste space on the internet.
And, you definitely don't have to put it in a blog listing.
Maybe though, I take to much of an OJ Simpson approach to blogging.
I truly blog so I can say If I Did It, Here's How it Happened.
I think that if I do anything, or think anything, and don't feel like the world can be allowed to know it, it must be wrong.
I know there's things you shouldn't talk about, so I don't talk about those things.
I understand that there's things that are so normal that it's pointless to talk about them.
If I didn't my blog would pretty much be about my bowel movements, what I ate, and the fact that I have fingers (how else would I type?)
.....nevermind that question :p
The point is, I believe blogging is a social thing, and if you're not going to use it as such. What's the point?
On: Monday, August 4, 2008
I was planning my blog entry for yesterday (is that even correct English?), but then I got up in Mybloglog it's pretty much just a way to get your blog noticed, and I think it works... a little.
My blog isn't really anything that most people would want to check out every day or anything, but I still love comments :p
So, I've been giving that a try, and it's at least getting me some hits.
Comments, nah, but hits are good too.
Anyways, I've been working on making even a tiny dent in the Blogosphere.
Do they even it call it that anymore?
Yeah, it's that hard to keep up with the internet.
It's even harder when you have a rat trying to type for you -.-
And by type I mean "bbbbbbbbbbsdakjf" -.-
Oh well, I love Toshiba. Even if he hasn't quite figured out that my fingers are not food.
I digress, today I haven't done much.
I joined this pretty awesome site called Tumblr.
It's kind of like Twitter, but better for actual blogging.
A lot of people use Twitter to just say what they're doing.
That's because Twitter thinks that if you can't say it in 140 words, it's not worth saying.
But with Tumblr I can post any random thought, link, quote or picture or video.
I'm not limited.
So, Tumblr is for a newer type of blogging called "Life Streaming".
To be honest, I'm not sure how new life streaming is because some people refer to the way Tumblr works as the way older blogs worked.
My blog isn't really anything that most people would want to check out every day or anything, but I still love comments :p
So, I've been giving that a try, and it's at least getting me some hits.
Comments, nah, but hits are good too.
Anyways, I've been working on making even a tiny dent in the Blogosphere.
Do they even it call it that anymore?
Yeah, it's that hard to keep up with the internet.
It's even harder when you have a rat trying to type for you -.-
And by type I mean "bbbbbbbbbbsdakjf" -.-
Oh well, I love Toshiba. Even if he hasn't quite figured out that my fingers are not food.
I digress, today I haven't done much.
I joined this pretty awesome site called Tumblr.
It's kind of like Twitter, but better for actual blogging.
A lot of people use Twitter to just say what they're doing.
That's because Twitter thinks that if you can't say it in 140 words, it's not worth saying.
But with Tumblr I can post any random thought, link, quote or picture or video.
I'm not limited.
So, Tumblr is for a newer type of blogging called "Life Streaming".
To be honest, I'm not sure how new life streaming is because some people refer to the way Tumblr works as the way older blogs worked.
"They remind me of an older style of blogging, back when people did sites by hand..."
Jason Kottke
And, I can see how that would make sense.
In the ealier days of blogging. Posting was less organized, and less corporate.
A "web log" was normally just a list of what happened, or a list of interests, or a list of this and that.
Early internet wasn't based around multimedia. It was based around text that was added at sporadic occasions by people who knew how to code a website.
That's why it was called a Web Log, or occasionally simply a journal, or diary.
But, I'm going to try to use Tumblr to pretty much just archive my daily life (and any thing I find that interests me), while this blog gets to be the center point of my thoughts... well, and my music... and my pictures... and my... oh, this is the biggest part. Tumblr is a side thing of interests and events :p
Also, my Tumblr is on the side panel to the right.
The thing that says liveblog.
Also, about my review of Xubuntu.
XFCE seems mostly like a slightly less organized, slightly more complicated version of GNOME.
But, it opens programs so fast that I'm gonna' stick with it for a while.
But, for people looking for a good Linux distro, Ubuntu seems the most stable.
Some people practically worship Opensuse, but everytime I've tried to use it, it crashes on me.
I might as well get to the music
How about something Ambient?
That should offset someof the harder stuff I've been having on here ;]
Some Interesting Points
On: Saturday, August 2, 2008
Other than the fact that yes, the Xanax seems to combat some of my problems, it does seem to lower my appetite even more :|
It also makes me slightly more dehydrated -.-
But, that is not what this blog is about.
Firstly, last night I looked into changing blogging sites.
For those who don't know, right now I use Blogger.
Firstly I looked into Livejournal, but quickly decided it was way to complicated for my simple mind :P
Plus, it revolved around social interactions.
Which I find pointless in a blog.
So, I went to Wordpress which had a login that said "Already Hip?"
I was like, "No, but I want to be hip. Sounds like it'd be cool."
Well, Wordpress was complicated at first, but after a half hour of messing with it, I managed to import my posts from Blogger to Wordpress.
Okay, so check out my blog which I had already customized to look nice and simple.
Scan my old posts... some thing is messing.
All of the flash code for my Jamendo playlists had vanished!
POOF!
Gone.
But, I decided to not let something small like that get in my way.
I would just go an re-add all the code.
Nothing way to big.
But, I tried it on one playlist, and then hit "Save".
Checked my blog.
Nothing.
About then I was getting pissed off.
But, I had started to actually like the way Wordpress was set up.
So, I did as much searcing as I could on how to add the Jamendo playlist.
Nothing.
I was super upset by now.
So, I just said screw it, and made my way back to the best blogging service for people who actually use media in they're blogs :D
But, for Web2.0 I would like to show ya' a nice search engine.
Searchme
This is an awesome search engine that pretty much searches like any other search enigine, but then it shows you the results in a nice coverflow form.
Then, you can make personal "Stacks" which hold searches divded in pretty much any way you want.
Like, here's my stack for Wikipedia articles of medicines that I take or have taken (trust, that is useful for me)
Then, here's another stack of mine that is just a handful of sites that I find help ease boredom :P
Right now though, your stacks are saved in your "Flash Cache" which basically means if you delete your cookies, you will lose your stacks. They're saying they're working on that though.
It also makes me slightly more dehydrated -.-
But, that is not what this blog is about.
Firstly, last night I looked into changing blogging sites.
For those who don't know, right now I use Blogger.
Firstly I looked into Livejournal, but quickly decided it was way to complicated for my simple mind :P
Plus, it revolved around social interactions.
Which I find pointless in a blog.
So, I went to Wordpress which had a login that said "Already Hip?"
I was like, "No, but I want to be hip. Sounds like it'd be cool."
Well, Wordpress was complicated at first, but after a half hour of messing with it, I managed to import my posts from Blogger to Wordpress.
Okay, so check out my blog which I had already customized to look nice and simple.
Scan my old posts... some thing is messing.
All of the flash code for my Jamendo playlists had vanished!
POOF!
Gone.
But, I decided to not let something small like that get in my way.
I would just go an re-add all the code.
Nothing way to big.
But, I tried it on one playlist, and then hit "Save".
Checked my blog.
Nothing.
About then I was getting pissed off.
But, I had started to actually like the way Wordpress was set up.
So, I did as much searcing as I could on how to add the Jamendo playlist.
Nothing.
I was super upset by now.
So, I just said screw it, and made my way back to the best blogging service for people who actually use media in they're blogs :D
But, for Web2.0 I would like to show ya' a nice search engine.
Searchme
This is an awesome search engine that pretty much searches like any other search enigine, but then it shows you the results in a nice coverflow form.
Then, you can make personal "Stacks" which hold searches divded in pretty much any way you want.
Like, here's my stack for Wikipedia articles of medicines that I take or have taken (trust, that is useful for me)
Then, here's another stack of mine that is just a handful of sites that I find help ease boredom :P
Right now though, your stacks are saved in your "Flash Cache" which basically means if you delete your cookies, you will lose your stacks. They're saying they're working on that though.
Today I would like to show ya' All:My:Faults.
It's a good German band that kinda' sounds like a less industrial/techno version of NDH with a very strong mixing of British Metalcore.
Bleh
On: Friday, August 1, 2008
My whole head. No, my whole body they ache.
This Strattera sucks.
No, worse than sucks.
All day I have been in a physical and mental mess.
I sleep, but I'm still tired.
I'm awake but I don't think.
Music makes my thoughts ramble.
And the very essence of my attitude towards life is destroyed.
Yes, it sucks.
Today Sony went outside, and came back in with a bump on his chin.
I think he fell on it or something cause the swelling is already going down.
Sony also decided to be an evil cat and harass Toshiba -.-
He didn't hurt him, just tried to play with him.
Now, Toshiba is scared, and hiding in his litter.
Otherwise, my day has been crap... actually, that was crap.
So, my whole say has been crap :P
I'm trying to find something interesting.
Just not quite sure what it is -.-
A Little Poem I wrote a while back... I was trying to be fancy :P
The sky was shown on amber wings
As the sun was found
The day was renewed as crystal sings
The moon took it's final bow
I thought I could stand dreaming
Whenever the muse struck me
Her eyes were stern yet loving
As a father to his one sun
I asked her, how shall I strike this match
She spake in a soft tone of motherly match
Give them their wants in less than treaded paths
Give them their dreams in a small, bite-sized batch
For you do not want them to be to full
Less you find yourself also full
This Strattera sucks.
No, worse than sucks.
All day I have been in a physical and mental mess.
I sleep, but I'm still tired.
I'm awake but I don't think.
Music makes my thoughts ramble.
And the very essence of my attitude towards life is destroyed.
Yes, it sucks.
Today Sony went outside, and came back in with a bump on his chin.
I think he fell on it or something cause the swelling is already going down.
Sony also decided to be an evil cat and harass Toshiba -.-
He didn't hurt him, just tried to play with him.
Now, Toshiba is scared, and hiding in his litter.
Otherwise, my day has been crap... actually, that was crap.
So, my whole say has been crap :P
I'm trying to find something interesting.
Just not quite sure what it is -.-
A Little Poem I wrote a while back... I was trying to be fancy :P
The sky was shown on amber wings
As the sun was found
The day was renewed as crystal sings
The moon took it's final bow
I thought I could stand dreaming
Whenever the muse struck me
Her eyes were stern yet loving
As a father to his one sun
I asked her, how shall I strike this match
She spake in a soft tone of motherly match
Give them their wants in less than treaded paths
Give them their dreams in a small, bite-sized batch
For you do not want them to be to full
Less you find yourself also full
For music I show ya' Musicforcap
It's in the same vein as The White Stripes, but... a lot different :P
Today
On: Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Today I went to the psychiatrist for a checkup. You know, regular stuff. I talked to him about my constant panic attacks, and he decided that the Prozac was causing them. Weird right?
He took me off Prozac, and put me on Xanax.
Then, my grandmother came in, and talked to him about my problems concentrating.
So, I now have ADHD. Strattera it is.
I'm not sure about the Xanax because I haven't gotten the pills yet.
I'm gonna' be on like... a very small dosage twice a day for that.
The Strattera though.
Oh my.
I've never taken well to ADHD meds, and this one isn't much different.
Loss of appetite is probably my biggest problem with them.
Nausea too.
But, I'm going to keep with it and wait the bad side effects out.
Hopefully it'll help me somehow.
After that my grandmother and I went around to Popeye's to grab some chicken for lunch (I have to eat when I take Strattera right now).
I'd never eaten Popeye's.., and it was alright.
But, the real event of the day came when we went to the pet store to get my grandpa some fish. I was wondering around the store looking for someone to help us with the fish. I walked through the small animals section, and as always I love looking at the hamsters, and cavies, and mice.
But, this time I looked down at a hairless rat!
I thought, "It's so cute. It reminds me of Baldwig (a previous hairless pet).
When I held the rat, it was like, wow, it's so wonderful.
So, I got him, and now his name is Toshiba, and he lives in a 10 gallon aquarium.
And there he is :D
I know the aquarium is kinda' dirty, but he doesn't seem to mind.
My grandpa described him as "Feeling like a foreskin." :(
But... he does... which is weird I guess. O_o
Also, now when Sony looks into his cage I can say "Sony, quit messing with Toshiba."
Yes, I know I'm a geek :P
All in all, my day was good. Very much so.
FUN FACT: Yes, rat's do pass gas... and it smells *-*
He took me off Prozac, and put me on Xanax.
Then, my grandmother came in, and talked to him about my problems concentrating.
So, I now have ADHD. Strattera it is.
I'm not sure about the Xanax because I haven't gotten the pills yet.
I'm gonna' be on like... a very small dosage twice a day for that.
The Strattera though.
Oh my.
I've never taken well to ADHD meds, and this one isn't much different.
Loss of appetite is probably my biggest problem with them.
Nausea too.
But, I'm going to keep with it and wait the bad side effects out.
Hopefully it'll help me somehow.
After that my grandmother and I went around to Popeye's to grab some chicken for lunch (I have to eat when I take Strattera right now).
I'd never eaten Popeye's.., and it was alright.
But, the real event of the day came when we went to the pet store to get my grandpa some fish. I was wondering around the store looking for someone to help us with the fish. I walked through the small animals section, and as always I love looking at the hamsters, and cavies, and mice.
But, this time I looked down at a hairless rat!
I thought, "It's so cute. It reminds me of Baldwig (a previous hairless pet).
When I held the rat, it was like, wow, it's so wonderful.
So, I got him, and now his name is Toshiba, and he lives in a 10 gallon aquarium.
And there he is :D
I know the aquarium is kinda' dirty, but he doesn't seem to mind.
My grandpa described him as "Feeling like a foreskin." :(
But... he does... which is weird I guess. O_o
Also, now when Sony looks into his cage I can say "Sony, quit messing with Toshiba."
Yes, I know I'm a geek :P
All in all, my day was good. Very much so.
FUN FACT: Yes, rat's do pass gas... and it smells *-*
Filtered Water And TV
On: Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Brita Water Pitcher If you live in Ennis, these things are so overrated.
I picked one up for 8 bucks at Wal-Mart because they were on sale, and I've been using it for the past monthe.
After a monthe of use, I still get black specks of charcoal (I think that's what it is) in the water, and Ennis water is already softer, and of higher quality than most other places, so it's extremely useless here.
It does make a nice pitcher though. It pours very well compared to other pitchers I've used. Not worth the $15 retail.
But, I found something awesome.
Well, I've know about it for a while, but i just now wanted to talk about it.
Hulu!
Hulu is like, a large database of internet tv shows.
You can watch The Office, or The Colbert Report, or all sorts of other channels from the comfort of you computer screen.
And, if you have a laptop you can watch tv anywhere.
My favorite places:
The Toilet
Not Me :Phttp://www.liewcf.com/blog/wp-images/best-employee.jpg
With Your Best (and let's admit it, only) Friends
http://images.teamsugar.com/files/users/1/15111/45_2007/3%20laptop%20geeks.preview.jpg
And Of Course, The 6th Dimension
There is no place that solid white in my world!
http://www.imagescience.de/singleparticles_org/school/img/laptop.jpg
Hulu is cool though, with it you can subscribe to your favorite shows. Then, when a new episode comes out for the show, Hulu will notify your account.
I go by Lexxin on it, but I'm not sure if that'll be useful to you :P
Today I wanted ya' to take a listening to Qurtis.
It's good. Trust me... would I lie to you?
Actually, don't answer that question.
Today...
On: Monday, July 28, 2008
I got new school clothes, and shoes.
The clothes are just fine.
They don't sow any logos, or any crap like that.
But, the shoes... they're VANS :(
I hate VANS because of the way they market they're logo.
It's stupid.
I don't skateboard, so it's already annoying to like the skateboard shoes, but, it's already to market a company that's like Hot Topic.
Yes, I put VANS up there with Hot Topic.
It is that bad.
Just like Hot Topic, VANS markets a sub-culture as mainsteam.
And, half the people that are punk/skateboard/etc. don't even care, and buy the shoes still!
That's stupid.
Hot Topic did the same thing on a much larger scale. So, I don't go to Hot Topic.
It's my own personal protest against that sort of mainstreaming.
Not that I'm against mainstream.
I'm against sub-culture's that are against mainstream going mainstream.
So, I took this shoe:
And turned it into this:
The clothes are just fine.
They don't sow any logos, or any crap like that.
But, the shoes... they're VANS :(
I hate VANS because of the way they market they're logo.
It's stupid.
I don't skateboard, so it's already annoying to like the skateboard shoes, but, it's already to market a company that's like Hot Topic.
Yes, I put VANS up there with Hot Topic.
It is that bad.
Just like Hot Topic, VANS markets a sub-culture as mainsteam.
And, half the people that are punk/skateboard/etc. don't even care, and buy the shoes still!
That's stupid.
Hot Topic did the same thing on a much larger scale. So, I don't go to Hot Topic.
It's my own personal protest against that sort of mainstreaming.
Not that I'm against mainstream.
I'm against sub-culture's that are against mainstream going mainstream.
So, I took this shoe:
And turned it into this:
Yes, it was easy.
Just had to cut off the logo.
However, the other shoe didn't want the logo to come off.
So, it left a big blot of dried glue.
I think I can fix it.
My Sneaux though (the shoes I have had for a year) have actually been used so much that the suede has come off, and now the shoe feels like leather :D
When I picked it up today, I looked at it funny cause I thought it was one of my grandpa's leather shoes.
:P
"You want to burn it down | So fucking slowly"
Trick Seventeen - Trick Seventeen - You Swank!
Anarcho-Punk FTW!
Meh, Warning: EMO MOMENT
On: Saturday, July 26, 2008
No, that's not a joke.
I'm sick, so I feel god awful.
Plus, my depression has been like on high.
I'd take my medicine to help it, but I don't like the way it makes me feel.
When I take my prozac I feel like... all hyper.
My grandparents think I get hyper on days when I don't take it.
They just don't know I never take it.
But, normally my depression is in check.
I'm actually better.
But, all I can think about is all the people I've hurt (or tried to hurt) because of my depression :|
Then, I get around to thinking about nothing except all the things I've missed out on.
I know I can redeem myself from all that stuff.
It just seems so hard at times.
Why?
Cause I don't even like 60% of the things I missed out on.
I just am full of what if's...
But, what's worse is that the rest of my time is spent thinking about how huge I'm going to seem to all the people at school :(
The people who haven't seen me all summer.
They'll say I still look the same as always.
Some might still tell me to eat.
But, I do that naturally.
140 is my new most hated number.
Guys aren't like this.
And even then I'm recovered.
I always eat.
I don't really want to get stuck in that trap.
Not again.
On another, better, more positive hand, I haven't cut in almost two monthes.
I think this time I might really be through with that.
I mean, I've gone 8 monthes before.
But, I don't collect sharp things anymore.
I can't remember a time before now when I didn't collect sharp stuff.
I still sleep with a razor under my pillow.
But that's because I feel safe with it there
And, I guess I don't literally sleep with one under my pillow.
I think it's somewhere under my bed with sticks of glue from seventh grade, smokes from eighth, and empty beer cans from ninth.
Oh yes, I went there.
I went all the way there :P
Meh, what I'm trying to say is that I've been miserable lately, but all and all, I feel like life is getting better.
I'm probably just having loads of panic attacks and stuff from school starting up again.
In a way, tat's what it all boils down too.
School... is gonna' be strange this year.
Very strange...
Today, I introduce ya' to the beauty of Floppy Dee :D
Oh yeah, I also wanted to say I'm a bit sorry for my last post on "I Hate Twilight". I still agree with a lot of what I said, but, I also realize that saying it was pointless and uneeded.
I'm sick, so I feel god awful.
Plus, my depression has been like on high.
I'd take my medicine to help it, but I don't like the way it makes me feel.
When I take my prozac I feel like... all hyper.
My grandparents think I get hyper on days when I don't take it.
They just don't know I never take it.
But, normally my depression is in check.
I'm actually better.
But, all I can think about is all the people I've hurt (or tried to hurt) because of my depression :|
Then, I get around to thinking about nothing except all the things I've missed out on.
I know I can redeem myself from all that stuff.
It just seems so hard at times.
Why?
Cause I don't even like 60% of the things I missed out on.
I just am full of what if's...
But, what's worse is that the rest of my time is spent thinking about how huge I'm going to seem to all the people at school :(
The people who haven't seen me all summer.
They'll say I still look the same as always.
Some might still tell me to eat.
But, I do that naturally.
140 is my new most hated number.
Guys aren't like this.
And even then I'm recovered.
I always eat.
I don't really want to get stuck in that trap.
Not again.
On another, better, more positive hand, I haven't cut in almost two monthes.
I think this time I might really be through with that.
I mean, I've gone 8 monthes before.
But, I don't collect sharp things anymore.
I can't remember a time before now when I didn't collect sharp stuff.
I still sleep with a razor under my pillow.
But that's because I feel safe with it there
And, I guess I don't literally sleep with one under my pillow.
I think it's somewhere under my bed with sticks of glue from seventh grade, smokes from eighth, and empty beer cans from ninth.
Oh yes, I went there.
I went all the way there :P
Meh, what I'm trying to say is that I've been miserable lately, but all and all, I feel like life is getting better.
I'm probably just having loads of panic attacks and stuff from school starting up again.
In a way, tat's what it all boils down too.
School... is gonna' be strange this year.
Very strange...
Today, I introduce ya' to the beauty of Floppy Dee :D
Oh yeah, I also wanted to say I'm a bit sorry for my last post on "I Hate Twilight". I still agree with a lot of what I said, but, I also realize that saying it was pointless and uneeded.
I HATE TWILIGHT
On: Friday, July 25, 2008
Yes, I do.
It's the stupidest book I've ever even tried to read, and I must admit.
I couldn't make it through the first chapter without nearly cutting my eyes out.
THat is how dry and lifeless the story is.
And don't tell me the book gets better.
It's so unrealistic that it makes Shrek look like a real encyclopedia of wildlife, and it brings about unrealistic expectations of the world.
Not just people, but the whole world.
Just a quick scan of groups dedicated to the book on facebook shows stupid things like "If you fell in love with Edward". And, worse yet, there is a group saying that vampires or good! WTF?
Out of all the (real) vampires I have met (aka people who take part in drinking blood), they were pretty damn full of themselves.
They weren't bad, no, but, they were jack-a's.
And then, in the event that there was an actual vampire invasion (not that I believe in "real" vampires), atleast a million or two girls and women would be dead because they would try to make the vampires fall in love with them.
And, then, the topic of sex introduced.
Call me conservetive, but sex is not something I agree with in novels that some people refer to as "the bible".
I mean, people that refer to those novels (are any novel other than said holy book) should be sued. It's so wrong that even I have trouble comprehending it.
And, if I have trouble comprhending it, it must be hard to comprhend.
In the end, we have something that is actually un-Christian, and I condemn the reading of this novel for anything except entertainment.
If you refer to it as "the bible", or better then said book.
I CONDEMN YOU.
It's bad if I condemn you.
Trust me, you're at the bottom of the social ladder if I won't even talk to you.
In the end though, this whole thing is (hopefully) just hype.
I asy hopefully because there's still another book full of ways to get killed in a vampire apocalyse to come.
-.-
I feel sorry for those who read this book (assuming there is actually a vampire apocalyse :P
But yeah, out of all the crap in the world the Twilight serious is something I'm actually against.
It's the stupidest book I've ever even tried to read, and I must admit.
I couldn't make it through the first chapter without nearly cutting my eyes out.
THat is how dry and lifeless the story is.
And don't tell me the book gets better.
It's so unrealistic that it makes Shrek look like a real encyclopedia of wildlife, and it brings about unrealistic expectations of the world.
Not just people, but the whole world.
Just a quick scan of groups dedicated to the book on facebook shows stupid things like "If you fell in love with Edward". And, worse yet, there is a group saying that vampires or good! WTF?
Out of all the (real) vampires I have met (aka people who take part in drinking blood), they were pretty damn full of themselves.
They weren't bad, no, but, they were jack-a's.
And then, in the event that there was an actual vampire invasion (not that I believe in "real" vampires), atleast a million or two girls and women would be dead because they would try to make the vampires fall in love with them.
And, then, the topic of sex introduced.
Call me conservetive, but sex is not something I agree with in novels that some people refer to as "the bible".
I mean, people that refer to those novels (are any novel other than said holy book) should be sued. It's so wrong that even I have trouble comprehending it.
And, if I have trouble comprhending it, it must be hard to comprhend.
In the end, we have something that is actually un-Christian, and I condemn the reading of this novel for anything except entertainment.
If you refer to it as "the bible", or better then said book.
I CONDEMN YOU.
It's bad if I condemn you.
Trust me, you're at the bottom of the social ladder if I won't even talk to you.
In the end though, this whole thing is (hopefully) just hype.
I asy hopefully because there's still another book full of ways to get killed in a vampire apocalyse to come.
-.-
I feel sorry for those who read this book (assuming there is actually a vampire apocalyse :P
But yeah, out of all the crap in the world the Twilight serious is something I'm actually against.
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